Saturday 11 July 2015

Midnight random thoughts

Funny how these days close pals and family think of me as a weird one. Seriously not laying any blames 'cos it's cool to say they were trying to protect me, but I have to stay truthful.. The same set of people who told(beat) me to stay away from guys because they won't be of any good to me are the same folks who are giving me the side eyes now because they aren't seeing any one around, not even a knock on the door from any guy 'popping in just to say hi'. Ohh! I remember I am now of 'marriageable age' that's if am not behind it already. I see the fears in mama's eyes, I guess she is still thinking: Does my girl still hold that crazy notion in her head about men?


..A strange fear came over me last night, I couldn't sleep throughout the night, In my panic I quickly switched on my mobile and started to peruse over some pages on the net just so I could get my mind off the disturbing thoughts. Thank goodness for the world called internet. It really helped. When I narrated my ordeal to my family this morning, some said I have lost touch with Jesus, others said I needed a man in my life..hehe. But I have got enough men in my life I argued, "no sister you need a real man", my elder sister said with the same tone and stress on the 'real man' like she always does as if that's capable of driving her words down my medula oblonganta.

.. I am a soul with a part called the body, am not a body with a soul. All this week, I have been more conscious of this soul than usual. My soul has been watching me more intently than it use to, strangely enough, it does not judge, prick or criticise me like it use to. It merely watched. I can hear it say to me loud and clear: Let me let you be and see where you end up. Oh soul! I know you too well, you can never let me talk without you analysing nor preach without you judging. All these: your silence and no criticism is a little charade of yours. You just want to see how far I can go without you.. Well watch

The musician knows when his instrument is well honed, the potter knows when his clay is of finest quality, the painter knows when he has found a good model, I say a human knows when he is filled with euphoria!









13 comments:

  1. Powerful midnight random thoughts... when there seem to be a disconnect of soul and body, that is the definition of kasala. I know you will do well to reunite these soulmates. yeaaa...
    Buh seriously you need a real man o (in that your sisters tone) lol.

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    1. Ah! Do you mean am in serious kasala.. lolz. All men are real and I have got a couple of men in my life, invariably, I've got a real man.. hehe. Thanks Ugo for your comment, it really cracked me up.

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  2. Exactly how human reason dear. The thoughts came because you have a conscience in there(soul). Your man will come when he will come.





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    1. Thanks!!! Gloria seriously my heart knows what it wants, and a man is the least of my challenges right now.

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    2. Sweet Rella! You see? I told you its deeper when you're gushing with emotions. This one right here is DEEP. I could write another post to analyze this post of yours o.

      But lemme just say one thing: That silence in your soul can be likened to PEACE. Silence is a great help when you seek after Truth ( like it works for me). In the attitude of silence, my soul finds the path in clear light, and differentiates what is good and deceptive. So Rella, your beautiful soul requires inward restfulness to attain its full height.

      Your soul knows you more than you do. It will meet its mate - your soul mate. Just relax. :)

      Did I tell you I love this post? I do!!!

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    3. Awww, I tried to do it as you said it works for you, I feel a little better, in fact betterrr. Thanks girl and I will so love to see you write a post on this.. please write oo..hehe

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  3. Oooooosssheeey Slayer! See as ya fine in the picShur above.. just so you know yeah.. That picSHur has been stolen *8Wears Evil Pervert Grin... So ya a fine geh someboRRy like this.. **Cleans eyes with iodine and spirit... Hian! a neFer hexSpeRRed it oh! **Winks.. Now this was a deep post baby mi.. even if i say so myself... But the truth is Rella.. Life is too short for nights like this... I mean think about it Baby mi.. The more we stay and be sober about the not so perfect times.. the more we waste a chunk amount of our life.. See ehn! We all feel how you fell.. I know you need sex and all (Okay that was a joke oh heheheh).. As i was saying I know how it feels sometimes to be separated and scatered from within.. Trust me.. I am confused most nights than not.. But earlier this year when i felt lost.. I went to see Jupiter Acsending at the Galleria.. And as i walked down Ahmadue Belo Talking to Janyl on the phone yeah... GOD told me something and it changed my life forever.. GOD said "Dance like no one is watching" Mehhhnnn baby mi.. Since then ehn.. Life moved from utter Confused to better Confused.. Since I started listening to GOD speak through my spirit (in your case Soul).. I started chilling oh aswear! So even when the storms are sooooo much and i think they are gonna drown me.. I bring out the 10, turn on Instagram, or Go to the Cinema and watch film Naira 500 .. or i Sex chat on WhatsApp.. WaRReva.. I sha try and Do stuff that makes me happy.. Cause in all sincerity.. If i stay Bitter or in my confused state Rella Darling.. I will only drown deeper.. You need to make memories Rella.. This is the time to do so.. There will be enough time to Think when you are old.. But this is the time to have Fun Rella.. If i tell you what is on my mind for you to do on such odd Hours ehnn... Awon Anonymous will come after me.. hehehe but baby mi.. Have Fun..

    And Hey! Point of CorrecSHion... No!! You dont need a man.. You are a lady and a man needs you.. I need you... Remember the Bible states that "he who finds a wife".. and not "she who finds a Husband"... I love you Rella... adolph4all@gmail.com next night you cant sleep.. mail me.. lets cause havoc on WhatsApp (Viewers Discretion is advised :p).. **Wears Evil Grin.. heheh Cheers Bubba.. and the crowd goes... Mmmmwaaaahhhh.

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    1. Choi see comment! Duru am just trying to imagine how your wedding vows to wifey will look like..like 10 pages of fullscap..lolz. I will only keep your mail address for future good purposes not so you can go spoil me on WhatsApp you hear.. Duru just so you know I do try and do stuffs that make me happy too, and it's never wrong to think as in think healthy right? Buh finally lemme use this opportunity to ask a CANDID question? Is it that you love women like beans or women are the ones who love you like sharwarma?

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  4. I really love this post... Even though I do not seem to understand the major reason behind it, is it because of the 'real man' or the silent soul, or is it both and what is the relationship between the two.


    My comment looks like a waec question already.
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  5. Like seriously Pheezy, the moment I saw it, confusion started dancing in my head.. lolz. Dear even I do not really know the reason behind the post *winks* but the reason must lie up there in the post..

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  6. Love the shirt. But truly you need a man, stop fighting it. Me I sha want to be a bridesmaid

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  7. Hahaha! They want one now when they kept chasing them away in the first place. Don't worry,God knows best. You hear? Your man is on his way, but till then.... Oya shake body and come and learn to Crochet to keep all negative thoughts away. Lol! I love your blog and thanks for visiting mine.

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  8. nice blog, nice article from great writer Earn Online

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